In trying to maintain momentum for my tasks, I’ve been pushing myself. I’ve been giving up sleep and some exercise to make the time available for my research and to build habits such as writing and reading.
But I’ve started to lose steam. Work stress, coupled with the challenges of keeping up this pace, has been wearing me down – physically and emotionally. And the current pandemic situation certainly isn’t helping.
I’m starting to recognise the old habits creeping in. The distractions. The procrastination. The lack of will.
It’s a destructive cycle that I’m in. The less that I do, the worse I feel, the more bad habits were stepping in to replace it, which leads to me doing less.
I need to regroup. I haven’t failed. I’ve only been given an opportunity to restart.